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| wow its been a long time since i got on here............i just got hooked on myspace and forgot my information to log back in on this!! i am glad i found it!! so my life is soooo messed up right now......everything is crazy......i stress myself out between trying to find a job and guys........i am gettting stressed because i can't find a summer job at home because my parents moved here and i dont know anyone and there really aren't any places looking for summer help only...it really sucks.....after about a month of being home and filling out over 20 or so apps i finally got a call back and went for an interview last thursday...so hopefully they will call me by wednesday and tell me i have a job......if not i am starting over again...it will really suck to have to do that....... no about guys...... why do guys talk to you and sound like they really want ot date you and all that and then go for weeks with out talking to you and then out of hte blue call you again acting like nothing is wrong and sounding like they just talked to the day before....i totally dont understand guys.....i give up on trying to also......I know guys my age are immature but i really thought if i went for an older guy (6 years older) that i would not have to put up with the same things....BOY was i wrong......i would think that a guy who is 26 would be ready to settle down and have a commited relationship, but BOY was i wrong again........i have been talking to him for almost a year now and he kept telling me that the only reason we weren't dating was becuase he had a few things to work out in his life...ok i can totally understand that, but after about 10 months is it really that hard to sit down and talk about it....i mean really.....how does a guy make plans with you and then never follow through with them......they will call and say we need to meet up or this coming weekend we should do this and then you never hear from them....why can't they just say what it is they feel or want......if he only wants to be friends then tell me......if he is scared of a commitment hten tell me that too......really is it that hard.....whatever i am giving up all together for a while......... i thought i was ready to move on with my life after the last 2 guys cheating on me and all that and i have learned that i am, but i seem to want the immautre guys who dont know what they want or are just tooooo scared to say what they need ot want......i have also learned that i am way to nice for some people.......i will go out of my way to do things for other, wanting nothing in return....but i have learned that people will be nice and act like your friend until they get you do what it is they want you to do then they stop talking to you or they stop until they need something again....why so you have to need something or want something to be friends with someone who may not be as rich or pretty or skinny or whatever it is that matches you and your other friends.....why can't people get along and be firneds with all different types of people??? that is something i will never know or understand........ ok this is getting way to long i am just going to stop now....... if you read this and can't follow it i am sorry i just started typeing so this is how random my brain is.......if i misspelled anytihng i am sorry for that too.......i am not checking anything i typed beforei i save it..... | | |
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SCHOOL.......its exam week and all is crazy......Everyone is studying and stressing out. All my classes are going well. i am passing them all and hoping to keep all my grades at B or A. I want this to be my best sem. Lets just pray it stays that way!!! Well I hope everyone does well on their exams.......
Random Feelings............ I am a christian who didn't grow up in church. My parents are 2 different religions, its hard being at a christian school and not really knowing a lot about the bible and God. I am doing my best to keep my heart and life in Jesus. Its hard when people dont understand that everyone comes from different places. All people need to remember is that everyone is different but can get along and be happy. Follow Jesus and all should be well, even though everyone who is a christian doesn't always believe that. Since i have been at this school (my second year now) i have started wondering if this is the life for me after seeing how a lot of the christians here act. I have found a few who make me want to live my life for Jesus but i have come across a lot more who make me want to push myself away. I know its the wrong way to go (away) but just with the way they treat and act towards other's is just so bad. | | |
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